Decisions....

Today Lynzy and I went to Disneyland and had a grand ole' time! It really was great. No lines, Christmas decorations, fun pictures.....

Then I come home and reality hits. I HAVE SO MANY DECISIONS TO MAKE!!! I read an email tonight that said it is not too late to apply for December graduation.... I only have 1 class to take and my Senior Recital. I can't afford to pay to come back and be a full time student when that's all I have left... so I am praying that Dr. Brand and whoever reviews the Graduation applications find it in their hearts to let this poor girl out!!!!

Aaaaannddd then there are the many decisions that come with my plans for next semester.

For now, I need a calm mind, a healthy voice and strength to get through the rest of this semester!

In regards to another subject in my life- it's hard. I am not one to sit around and be at peace knowing their is someone in this world who I hurt. Someone who I spent every day talking to, and now he won't even entertain the idea of me. He doesn't want anything to do with me. Also, when I hear about his life and things having to do with him, it's hard not to care. It's hard not knowing when for a while we knew the happenings in each others lives. I have so much to tell him too. It sucks losing a friend...


.... I LOVE Disneyland though.... :-D

Extrovertedness

For the last 5 years or so l I have always considered myself one who rides the edges of extrovert/introvert. Well, I am pretty sure at this point in my life I am an extrovert, or at least a lot more than I used to be. I love to be around friends and people I love. If I am alone for too long, I get depressed.... Just being honest here. haha

My mind has vacillated so much since I have been on Thanksgiving break. I still don't know what I am going to do. However, instead of letting it consume me until I make a decision I am stuck with, I am just going to live one day at a time and see where God leads me. (Easier said than done)

My family is great. The Holidays make me anxious for that one day when I will meet the man I can bring around my family and have him enjoy them with me. Someone who will talk about football and laugh at my dad's jokes. Someone who will stand around the piano and sing Hymns with my mom and her side of the family. Some day.....

I'm still not sure if I am going to audition for Fiddler on the Roof. If I knew what was good for me, I'd just stay focused on my Senior Recital which is in February... but no, the Musical Theatre lover in me is having difficulty accepting that I may not have time to be on stage- my favorite place to be.

Tomorrow I'm going to Disneyland! My throat hurts, let's hope that goes away VERY quickly.

Thanksgiving break...

is here.... Tonight as I was pumping gas at the Arco down the street, I stopped for a moment and took in my surroundings. Home always feels so wonderful. Then I thought to myself, despite all else that happens in life, I am blessed to have it. I love the wet streets, the bright shops, Christmas lights and the crisp air.

I have so many decisions to make. Everything I had planned suddenly doesn't seem right and God might be changing my path. I am perfectly okay with that, I just hope it's the right decision.

Living obediently to God is the best feeling in the world.

I prayed tonight about the man I am supposed to be with. I prayed that God would bring him into my life in His timing and that when it happens I will be ready enough and know how to properly love him and remember to put God first. I've failed in every attempt thus far.

This semester was definitely a huge learning experience. The phrase "what doesn't kill us, only makes us stronger" held so much meaning the last few months. I've learned, hopefully I've grown, and I'm ready to LIVE.

I have a lot to be thankful for. (List to come tomorrow)