Blast from the past...

I'm thinking right now about the paths we choose in life.

Talking with an old BFF who I was practically inseperable with before College... we both went to different schools and slowly drifted though not in a negative way. We'd still go and support each other at shows and what not.

Well now she's in China and traveling the world on a tour with Disney.

Although I love what I do and I really feel blessed, you can't help but feeling lame compared to someone doing big things.

Which makes me think about our paths... I chose this path. I have a passion for teaching and although menial, I love it. She has a passion and confidence to take on the world.

Sometimes I wish I had done that.

Why did I chose the path I'm on? I guess I didn't chose it. We can do what we want, but I didn't even attempt that path.

Times like this I want to pack up and take on the world...say bring it on and just keep pushing until I hopefully land something.

Maybe some day.

Summer sounds.

Thank God it's Friday!!

I have thus far spent the morning talking on the phone to my BFF who just recently moved to Chico :(, went to Taco Bell for my favorite chicken quesadilla, and laid out by the pool reading Marie Claire with Sarah Jessica Parker on the cover (love her), and listening to Colbie Caillat on the good ole iPod.

I got to thinking... It's funny how certain music links us to events in the past. For me, Colbie Caillat was my summer 07 album that was always on repeat.

... I wonder what my Summer 08 sound will be?

Hmmm...

Putting your mind to it.

No, I haven't died... I am just a really horrible writer and the only thing I know how to do is a play by play of my day instead of some artsy wordage that makes you think..... Whatever, here I am.

So you graduate. and you are no longer shielded from the hard stuff. I work and I work and I work. I have a new boyfriend. His name is work. I love my job, I love the people that I work with, but this week I realized it isn't always going to be rainbows and butterflies. You see the good, the bad and the ugly. This week was just that. I am sure a part of it has to do with the fact that we've moved this week to a new location and we're all just exhausted. The other part is.... POLITICS. They come with the package in Theatre but boy are they ugly.

I do love being independent. I love making money. I love getting a fat paycheck and knowing once I pay off my bills, I can still do some shopping and get a pedicure. I probably won't always have these luxuries, especially when I get my own place. I will enjoy them for now.

When I put my mind to something I can achieve it.. I've realized that about myself recently.. However, why can't I overcome the post-graduation weight? Man alive. However, on a happier note I am going to be playing Mrs. Potts in Beauty & The Beast and after a year off from shows (had to focus on the Recital) I am more than ready to hit the stage!

God is blessing me. Even when I feel like I am void of some things in life, I have to realize what I DO have.

"Forgiven so that I can forgive"
That verse always hits me.

Praise God from whom all blessings flow.