Melatonin...

Yes, that's right.. this blog is written under the influence of Melatonin... my sleep aid because my body has yet to adjust to my California sleeping pattern. Last night I was up until 6am, it was horrible. As I write this I am listening to "Mighty to Save" by Hillsong.. then again when am I NOT listening to "Mighty to Save"? haha

I've been thinking a lot lately. It's mostly just the fact that I am finally allowing my mind to think now that I am back from Japan. Before I left and during, I was so Japan focused, I didn't want anything to get me off track. Well now I'm back and the thoughts come rushing in... consuming me. It's actually quite bad. I am beginning to stress and worry far too much. Why is it so hard to trust sometimes?

My mind goes from what to do about graduation, waiting for God to open or close doors, worrying about the path my brother is on, not finding a Church that quite fits me, realizing how important fellowship with believers is... etc. YEAH SERIOUSLY.

Japan was a spiritual high in a sense... and I guess as Kristen talked about, I feel green. It's weird not being surrounded by Christians who challenge, encourage and edify each other. I need to get used to this. Here comes my fear of change. Some day I won't be in this "Christian bubble".. it's hard. Jesus is so much more mighty than I allow myself to think half the time. I know He is, I just neglect to acknowledge it.

Really though, being home is AMAZING. I am a fan of California, even if I do miss Japan.

When I become involved in a project it's all I can think about. Right now I am spending most waking moments planning and organizing the music for the Theatre Camps I am doing. I love it, but man... I really get into it!

We are also moving, so that's a big task.

When I sit back and reflect.... LIFE IS GOOD!